I had an epiphany today, and while I didn’t feel shocked about it in my mind, my body sang with relief of the knowledge. I cried in my shower and I cried outside of it too, but my body said yes, and thank you! I cannot tell you how good it felt to say so many words that were locked inside, that I not only needed to say inside my head, but outside my head too.

I truly am completely honest with myself, or so I would have thought, but today and here recently, I have found that despite my thoughts about this, it just isn’t always true. I found that I have been keeping some things so deep, under lock and key, away from my mind, my eyes, my heart, my soul, that only my body was holding the secret for discovery. Things have been set in motion, and while I have been working towards this epiphany, today it happened.

We think we know ourselves so well, and while we do-to the extent we do, some things about ourselves, may not occur to us. Wow, lol, that is a bit mind tripping, so let me clarify. I could understand that I was struggling with certain aspects of my life, but I honestly had to work through many more things before the raw reason was revealed to me. This is how it often happens, and because I had never hidden anything from myself, this epiphany came as a complete surprise, a relieving surprise, but also it was a devastating surprise.

I have been completely limiting my interaction with people lately, and this has all been part of what has delivered me here today. Isolation, limitation, and lots of soul searching. Lots. The thing is, what I thought was keeping me from people, was really a sign getting me to see the road to epiphany. I have been so preoccupied, I missed so many signs, and so I was taken down a different road, to change my view, to get me to my destination. It amazes me that no matter how much you won’t see what is in front of you, there will be detour after detour to take you to the same place, the same outcome, your interaction or lack there of will bear no importance, you cannot stop what is inevitably meant to be. Will you try to sort through the minutia to get there though?

On this 44th day of 45 writings, I hope you will come back tomorrow, as I have something good to share. Drop me a line, tell me something you have realized recently, or something that took you by surprise, I’d love to know.

You never know how things will go, how things will change, or how things will play out. It’s best to roll with things, stay flexible and jovial while doing it. I love being open to new people, places and experiences, you never know what or where you will find yourself.

So, I found myself looking at a local online auction, and fell in love with a “large” mirror that was up for bid. Bill and I debated how large, large was, and let me tell you, his joke about how big this mirror would turn out, was a bad, accurate joke. This thing was huge!!! While I have a giant clock in my living room, I do not have space for another large round object on any wall anywhere else in my house.

She’s purty, but I just don’t have the room.

Ironically, today I went in to a store downtown that I have never been in. It was a gorgeous store with lovely clothing, a beautiful space and I could envision this giant mirror in there. Like any sane person would do, I asked the sales lady if they would want the mirror. We started talking about it, and she said she just moved and the mirror sounded like it would be perfect for her new home place. So, I told her she could have it. Now, before you start pondering how much I paid for this giant mirror, I will disclose that it cost me $7.50. If my $7.50 could make someone happy, then I am all for it…and maybe it will end up in her place of employment anyhow, which I am okay with either way. The point is, some things work exactly as they are meant to, even if you have no clue the events will even happen.

Our jaunt downtown produced many positive interactions and exchanges. It was a fun time, with lots of laughs and smiles, and we decided to plan time to come back and do some more things the next go round. In fact, I am heading back next week to fill a planter…one of my snake plants may or may not have met it’s demise.

We came home from our trip downtown, and made a yummy salad from one of our Home Chef meals for lunch. Holy Schmoly this was good!! I love spending time with Bill, cooking, talking with my girls, and trying not to be killed by dogs that are acting as buzzards swarming for food droppings…all while simultaneously avoiding them tripping me. Lol, truly good times!

This was a great day spent with Avery, Bill and then Brooke. It was a great day for us to have off(except Brooke), and a great way to spend some time together in our lovely downtown. I was so happy to have my people all together this afternoon for a tasty meal, and now to spend time just being together. Ahh, happiness!

What did you do today? Did you do something fun, or extra? Did you enjoy the day in a certain way? Drop me a line, let me know what you did today and how you embraced your people and time!

On Saturday, this is what my Maple and Weepjng Cherry trees looked like…

And here they are today:

What a difference a few days can make!!

I do love blooms of all sorts, and thankfully my husband knows that! I like to have fresh flowers when I can, and got my last bouquet from Walmart, they have such lovely flowers for a big box store. My latest bouquet died off and I told my husband I would probably pick up a new one on my next Walmart trip, lucky me, he surprised me with a new Spring arrangement before I could go.

Ahhh! Do you love when things bloom in your yard, or in your house? I sure do! Let me know what you have happening in your yard and if you have some blossoms or blooms in your house…or if you have some house plants, that will do too!

I am a firm believer in signs and numerology, I also believe those things are divinely put in my path to help guide me. Sometimes I miss the message, or think it may not be for me at that time, but when it hits me of the significance, I reflect back and think about how long the sign has been waiting for me to catch up. In this case, it has been 5 months.

I first noticed this 5 back in October, and sent the picture to Marci, owner of Geode Fitness and Yoga. We had a discussion about the number, and the significance of it. While I felt it important enough to share and discuss with her, the relevance of the number to me, was yet to be uncovered.

You can look up the meaning of all kinds of things, and while they make sense, the whole purpose for you to see, may not be visible yet. So you remain patient, probably forgetting in time that you ever saw the five, or shrug it off thinking it wasn’t meant for you, until you realize, it really is meant for you!

In numerology, five can represent independence, self growth, spiritual growth, loyalty, adventure, balance/harmony, and even in a negative way-selfishness. There are a host of resources that will tell you what all the number 5 can represent in numerology, and sometimes, the number can signify that change is coming! It really is not as wide open as it seems, so make sure you look up what the number 5 can mean!

In the Bible, 5 is representative of God’s Grace. It can also signify creation, transformation, victory or success. Five also signifies our five senses, five fingers on each hand, books and parts of books in the Bible, 5 stones for David, and so much more! I suggest you look that up as well, it is quite intriguing to learn about the importance of 5, biblically.

When I began this 45 days, I knew on day 5 that I was going to be done with massage therapy. It was solid, decisive, I was ready to release what I had done for so long, but that was part of an old journey, part of an old me. Five for change, transformation, journey…

I didn’t find it odd on day 41, with five days left, that the number held way more significance in my life, than not. I am en route to a new journey, one of self transformation, more spiritual growth, all while stepping back in to my complete self and not who I have been expected to be, not who I have been formed to be.

I will say right now, I think writing has become a habit, something I mostly look forward to(except the days I forget, and post late, lol!), something I want to continue. It is time to pick my camera up and join the two, as I first wanted to do. It’s time for me to be unapologetically me, adventuring, journeying, living my life, for me.

Are you on a journey, an adventure? Are you transforming or returning to your lawless and senses? Drop me a line, let me know if you have number speaking to you, if you are going or doing something new with your life, I’d love to know!

Your daily boost of serotonin, courtesy of Sonny.

We all need some Sonny in our lives!!

How many times in your lifetime do you suppose you will rise up from the ashes, once the dust has settled? Are we counting the little things, because I don’t think we are, Phoenixes only rise from the most absolute fires, returning to life stronger, more wisened each time. What a come back, rising from the ashes of the fire that meant to destroy you, but the fire had no idea about you, about the fire that burns inside you, about the water flowing through your cells, the air in your lungs, the earth beneath your feet and the spirit in your soul. What a wonder you are!

Each comeback is meant to be different than the last. Each time you come back is meant to make you stronger and wiser…despite the hits you take, the damage incurred. You will know more this time than you did the last, you will find another version of yourself that resembles earlier parts of you, but there will be more of you, more of what you need, more of what you learned, more of less that can be handled by others, but that is for you, not for them. You are meant to rise and fly.

You don’t need permission, you just need to let go and be reformed in to your newest self, the version of you meant for now. You don’t need to apply pressure, you aren’t a diamond, you’re a Phoenix. You can’t fly with your wings clipped, put those clippers down and don’t for the love, don’t hand them to another. You are only as burdened as you allow yourself to be…don’t forget the fire will burn it all away, and all you have to do is be reborn from the ashes. Are you ready to rise?

Stop holding back, stop watching others live whole or half lives, breathe it in, let it go. Trust yourself, trust in what and who you can. Go above dreams, soar to the higher realms of where you are meant to be, where your true self desires and deserves to be. Just let go, breathe. Whisper to the flames, I am the fire. I will burn, crumble and rise.

I wrote a doozy of a blog post last night, and as I suspected, I chickened out of posting it today. What is too much honesty? What is too much said. I had Bill read it, and he said to post it because it is honest. I said I couldn’t post it because it is too much. He said post it because it is true and so many people feel that way. I said no, I am tired of talking about things that people either don’t understand, or don’t think applies to their lives. So, today, I have so much to say, but I think I can skip my creative writing therapy session today.

And is anyone else ate up with their bracket(s)??? You would think I watch college basketball religiously the way I check my bracket, nope, I am just competitive with my lack of knowledge. And for all of you that have Duke winning it all, so do I, and they started playing better after I turned it on. Don’t worry, I’ve got this. Jaime, I hope your other two brackets are still looking good!

Speaking of brackets, did you know college wrestling has a bracket??? Do.not.get.me.started. I actually watch college wrestling a bit more. A bit, more. I am so glad that I am not a gambler, I couldn’t imagine e being wrapped up in winning and losing so much, all the time!

Drop me a line, let me know what you have on your bracket, if you have a bracket, or if you wish March Madness wasn’t a thing. I am open to your thoughts and enjoy hearing what others think!

You know how you start your day with a plan, with steps of succession? Yes, well my day started off that way and then kinda went off the rails. You never know what kinds of wrenches may be thrown your way, but you have to roll with it nonetheless.

Here is my finished paint job in my space, now I need to rearrange things, select what stays, what goes. I will need to add some new things soon, but it is a work in progress! My husband was being very proactive today to gain me some new clients…I think he worries that I will cheat myself or undersell myself. Nah, I’m just getting started.

Anywho, I did get a facial today with my girl Jacky, she’s the best! We went to dinner with our girls, glad to have our oldest home on spring break, glad the youngest was off today. The weekend is going well, but quick, so I better make the most of the day tomorrow!

What was your day like today, did it go as planned, was it off the rails, or other? Oh! I did make some Sangria! Peep my 19 Crimes Cali Rose, ‘sup Snoop?!

Drop me a line, let me know how your Saturday has been, what you have or haven’t done. I’d love to know!

I started my day around 9:30, washing down walls, then I taped off woodwork, and proceeded to paint two coats of Sherwin Williams Extra White on the walls. I just pulled the tape off and washed my paint tools for the next time. Life is so much better when you clean up right away, and after the job is done!

I am beat to say the least, and thankfully my wonderful husband is cooking one of our Home Chef meals tonight! I can’t wait to eat, take a shower and probably be a zombie here in a bit. The satisfaction of change soothes my little Scorpio heart, but tomorrow I will finish doing whatever I am going to do…clearly it’s a very loose plan at this point.

Please tell me what you did today, was it fun, or was it productive, maybe a combo? Did you enjoy the day outdoors before the spritzing rain came along? I will see you tomorrow, and maybe another peak of my room…maybe. Drop me a line and let me know what you did today!

This was the perfect day to have windows open, to reflect on what I have gotten done so far this week and to look things that I need to wrap up this week and/or add to next week! AND, today I looked out in my front yard, my maple tree is leafing!!! Yeehaw!! I love when all the flora and fauna start coming back to life, blooming and gracing us with their color and beauty! Who is with me on that?

I also enjoyed the full moon this morning, did you see it? We talked about the moon briefly at yoga today, for some, when full, the moon makes them feel wired, hectic or chaotic, a bit off if you will. For me, I feel a sense of peace and happiness, almost like I made it to where I was going, I have nothing to worry about and life is good! Funny how we are all affected differently by the stages of the moon. Do you have one stage in particular that affects you more than the others, or does one stage really have a strong impact on you? I would love to know, we can talk moon all day!

Today is a widely celebrated day, being St.Patrick’s Day, do you have plans today? Did you do anything special or fun, or will you later? I donned my Lucky shirt today, maybe it will bring me a pot of gold tomorrow? Who knows?!

I would love to hear what you have going on today, drop me a line and tell us what you did or are doing this evening, and what’s blooming/leafing in your neck of the woods!